Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Create, Write & Capture

My intent here is to represent our life as honest as I can while still respecting the privacy of my family. It's a delicate balance to maintain and when in doubt I usually stay quiet. What I share today is a piece of my story.

My heart has been heavy for almost a week now. The transition from school to summer has been hard.really.hard. My patience has been tested and many times has failed me. I've spoken harsh words that flew out of my mouth before I could stop them. I've berated myself for these actions.

Negative self talk has been in my head & heart. Outwardly I make light of my struggles, internally I retreat. When I retreat I don't feel like creating, I don't feel like writing, I don't feel like capturing. I am fortunate to have a partner in life who sees my retreat and fights like hell to get me back. We're working together to turn my bad days into good ones and that lifts me up out of the darkness.

I have curated a set of blogs that inspire. It seems that they always provide encouragement when I need it most. This week my reading reminds me that I am responsible for my outlook, my attitude, my choices in the face of any circumstance. Inspired I find joy in creating, I need to write, I am compelled to capture. I find my magic.

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Owen (2YRS) & Travis (7WKS)

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Garrett (7 1/2 YRS)

This afternoon the littles were actually napping at the same time and feeling uplifted I started to go through last weeks pictures to print for Project Life and found magic. These shots are before my run of bad days began. I was reminded how important it is to create, write and capture even when I'm not in a good place. Whether I can see it or not at the time there is so much beauty in my life.

Today I read Jenny's post on Perspective and was inspired to write my own "I Am" list.

I am loved by my husband just as I am.

I am my children's safe place.

I am Travis' everything at 8 weeks old.

I am a lover of long skirts.

I am great at capturing my boys essence in photographs.

I am patiently waiting for HGTV to schedule the new season's of Sarah's House and Sarah 101.

I am a writer.

I am learning to be kinder to myself.

I am practicing my patience.

I am living an intentional life.

Thanks for reading. I truly hope you find your own magic this week.

Monica

3 comments:

vintagemodernquilts | Lisa said...

Love you, Mon! Creating and capturing are always where you find your joy. These pictures of the boys are beautiful. That one of Garrett in the water is amazing!

{I'm also IMPATIENTLY waiting for Sarah's House! COME ON HGTV!!! I would almost move to Canada for that show. ;)}

My name is Amee said...

I hope you continue to feel better and stay on the up & up.
Your children are absolutely precious!! I love your photos.
((hugs)) to you.

Basement Stamper said...

You are amazing!! Being a mother is not an easy job and the transition from 2 to 3 children is challenging. Your husband is amazing in recognizing and bringing you back from those swings. I hope that you will always be inspired to write, I think that some down days are brought back by being able to write (even in a journal). Glad you have found some inspiring blogs to lift you up.